i canz be 19?

For a 19 year old I think I think about life and stuff to much. I actually started accepting death and stuff when I started working at Coles. Not because the jobbed sucked, but because it was so monotonous I could actually shut my brain off from what I was doing and think. After that, I used to get really depressed at work. Add that to the depression from actually working, and it was bad. I'm all good now. Being unemployed and just internetting it for 6 months has done good on my life (I think anyway).
It's also made me think about religion and stuff alot. Now, honestly, I still don't know what I believe. I was christened, my family is EXTREMELY religious. We're Greek, so yeah. There are only 3 people in my family who have questioned religion. My Mum, who out right hates it. My cousin, who doesn't really know if she believes or not, and of course me.
What I hate about religion, is that people are so pushy for their religion. Expecially Jehovahs Witness' who come to your door. Sure, some of their brochures are good reading (I read one that says something about life is like fire, when it's extinguished, it's gone forever, and that stuck with me) but honestly, if you're religion preaches truth, and good faith, people (I hope) will be able to find it themselves. Another thing about religion is the total hypocrisy. Mainly with Scientology. No not that Scientolgists are hyporcrites, that people in other religions are to them. They mock their religion, throw protests, just because a science fiction writer created it. I would much rather trust a science fiction writer who I knew lived, then a few guys back 2000+ years ago who wrote a book.

My personal belief, which you may say "Is this a joke?" and when I started saying it, it kinda was, until I put more thought into it. I am a "gamer" and not in the sense of "Oh gaming is my life" no, in the sense of life is a game.
I've said before "Jesus just had an extra guy" but the more thought I put into it, the more I find paralels in religion. We could all just be in another world right now, hooked up to some kind of 'life simulator' and if we live our lifes in this good, we get to continue once our character dies. If we don't then, no we don't. It makes sense in my head, so hopefully it came out ok.

I was originally going to blog about some YouTube stuff. I've been meaning to for 2 blogs, but I always seem to run into something else. Oh well, maybe the next blog. It is 10 to 5a so I think I will watch a bit more Youtube then hit the bed. Night night.